this week feels like it flew by, where did all the time go? the snow day yesterday was realllll nice, other than the fact that i had so much to do that i couldn’t really go out. nothing beats waking up and checking facebook to see tons of ‘snow day!’ status’ and climbing back into my cozy warm bed for another few hours of rest.
after quitting the crew team a few weeks back with a few of my friends, we decided we’re going to go out for spring track and field. don’t get me wrong; i love rowing and boathouse row and working out, but rowing for my school was too much for me. and it’s not like by quitting i was severing all the ties; rowing runs in my family so i can still go out on the water at my leisure for as long or as little as i’d like. but i really missed the 5 or 6 mile runs we’d take, they were a ton of fun believe it or not. i’m excited because i’ve missed working out this past month since i’ve been too lazy to sign up for the LA fitness literally down the street from me. i’m stokkkeedd! it’s going to be perfect.
i’ve been sick as a dog recently; if i’ve spoken to you you’ve probably heard my hoarse voice. no fun! lots and lots of tea cured it temporarily, but today it was raspy once again. and i’ve been feeling really weak and exhausted, which has resulted in 4 hour naps. not good, because i’ve turned into some-what of a night owl. it doesn’t agree well with a 6 am wake up call however.
also, i’ve found myself extremely bored and tired of my itunes library. there’s far too much music in there that i don’t like anymore or have simply never listened to before that got lost in the 3,900 some songs. i’ve done many stages of ‘spring cleaning’ despite the fact that it’s january, and it’s so refreshing. out with the old, in with the new. i downloaded a bunch of Good Old War, Butch Walker, Cass McCombs, and just for Lili and Elyssa- Four Year Strong, despite how “hardcore” it is, haha.
not much else to say, potentially hitting up valencia this weekend? oh and my lowest grade this quarter was an 89, the rest were A’s. suck on thaaattttt. busybee busybee.
i always want what i can’t have, and i am burdened with what i don’t. this isn’t what you think it’s about; but somehow applies universally. it’s much different with an outsiders perspective, i just wish you were able to see that. currently it’s 30 degrees outside, i beg to differ. it feels more like 4 and school cancelled tomorrow would be lovely. but either way, i won’t have class until 8:30 tomorrow so i have the luxery of sleeping in (if that’s what you call waking up at 7 instead of 6.) i’ve been extremely happy lately- i’m pretty positive it’s because i’ve finally eliminiated the one thing i thought would BRING me more happiness, crew. more of the opposite way around. i’ve been surrounding myself with only the best people in my life, i couldn’t be more thrilled.
life lesson: never pass out at a party with your shoes on, you WILL get messed with. this weekend was a really good one, and i got to spend it with some of my best friends cute boys and good times. i havn’t laughed so hard in such a long time, or possibly so high pitched, hahaha. seeing shane was really good, indescribable? i’ve always been tremendously appriciative of everything in my life, but lately i’ve been more than ever.
as of today, i’m finished with my mid-term exams. they definitely helped the week go by quickly, but at the same time isolated me from everything, or at least it feels that way. my chem exam today was a bitch, i’m not expecting anything highter than an 80 probably. while it was definitely relieving to be finished with exams for now, i had to say goodbye to koty this afternoon. though it doesn’t sound all that bad, 4 months will feel like an eternity. i can’t help but feel upset; so many people are slowly walking out of my life and i feel like i’m in auto-pilot mode without control. it’s not so much that they’re drifting or leaving, it’s that i havn’t been able to say goodbye.
on another note, it’s my best friends 18th birthday today. the last time i saw her, i was 14 and she was 16. now she’s an adult; has the ability to vote and voice her opinions, to buy tobacco and make her own decisions. time feels as if it’s flying by, which is what i want (i think.) i want to grow old, yet stay young forever. i’m tired of waiting, but i don’t want to grow up too fast.
“i walked into whole foods today and saw a woman wearing an Obama pin. i asked “are you happy today?” she said yes and teared up. we hugged, and i’ve never met her in my life. times are changing Katie, and you’re helping to make history. we all are. don’t you ever, ever forget today.”—a little late, but my aunt inspires me quite a bit.
today we’re going to make history. i couldn’t be more excited to be alive right now.
early morning riser, once again. it’s refreshing to wake up before the sun once more. but not so much to take a western civ H midterm at 7:30 in the morning. not exactly my cup of tea. four more, one down, and all i want to do is watch the inauguration but unfortunately i have a date with my textbooks.
it’s in this moment i realize i’m living my life and you’re living yours, with an entire ocean and 3000 miles between us. please keep your promise and stay safe. i worry about you everyday, and it makes me sick to my stomach to think about what condition you’ll return in. stay in control, we love you.
no no no, i’m not ready. i’m not ready for this to happen (so soon). where did time go? simple reminders come in the form of a smile that warms our hearts. this empty house, it’s breathes. it whispers to itself when no one is around. it pleads cries to be tended to in hopes that the haunting memories attached to the year two thousand and six will not become a deja vu come true.
i’ve found my footing, and i’m not letting go. you may have your doubts, but at least i live with passion. what do you have to show? this reads in my mind the way that a song should. decisions, decisions that shouldn’t have to be made just yet. fear of falling back into the same pattern. my eyes cling to you like glue. more like a collage of everything currently existing around me. cue the soundtrack to my life.