"Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody’s around - nobody big, I mean - except me. And I’m standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they’re running and they don’t look where they’re going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That’s all I do all day. I’d just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it’s crazy, but that’s the only thing I’d really like to be.” -Catcher in the Rye
i woke up with a smile on my face today. get your thoughts down before they’re snatched from beneath your feet. push yourself to deliver your best, every single day. hey pretty boy, i hope you understand. nothing compares to listening to a new record for the first time. nothing compares to kissing you for the first time. the same, the same. the best thoughts we think are the ones right before we fall asleep. i need to write them down just to feel alive in the same way. write with your heart and edit with your mind.
I feel like no one believes in me. It makes me so angry to the point that I want to cry. I am not going to cry about it though. Not now, not ever. I am taking a deep breath and letting it go. I guess believing in myself will have to be enough.
these heat waves are a friendly reminder that summer is just around the corner, and i couldn’t be more excited (: i just want school to be over and three months of fun before everything turns to hell again. last summer was preetty good, but this ones going to be ten times better, i can feel it (:
i have been so absolutely obsessed with tattoos lately that i want one real bad, but not for a few years of course or at least until i find something that i really like. i’m drawn to the simple ones and ones that really do look like art, not just an icon or image or something, but creative ones. and ones in french. and sayings in general. definitely putting a bunch of tattoo books on my ‘want’ list, they’re so fun to look at (:
i’ve been doing a terrible job updating this recently, but i’m going to make a solid effort to post more.
i’ve welcomed new people into my life and gotten rid of those who didn’t need to be there. i’ve built stronger friendships, and all around i’ve been so incredibly happy. changing seasons is always rough, but i always make it through. i’ve come to realize i’m embarking on a new chapter of my life, and slowly closing an old one. it’s nice. but a bit hard when some aspects of your life are still tucked inside the familiar pages and won’t budge. it’s a nice balance though, if i can manage it.
sometimes you have to explore both ends of the spectrum before you can find a comfortable balance.
i vacationed on the west coast about a week ago, to las vegas & arizona. it kind of really sucked being in the same time zone as my best friend, but not being able to see her. fingers crossed i’ll get to see her again this summer! las vegas was un-like anything i’ve seen before, but not somewhere i could ever call home. there’s nothing there besides casinos, cheap motels, and strip clubs. perhaps the city of philadelphia has spoiled me, but vegas did not fit my definition of a ‘city’. but i must admit, the mountains, weather, and vast openness might be enough to lure me back to sin city some day. i caught up with some old friends who happened to be in vegas the same time as me, which was real nice. some people never change. one major highlight of the trip was seeing Penn & Teller’s magic act, if you ever go to Vegas i definitely recommend it, their tricks will leave you questioned and talking about it for days, take my word.
i got to see two spectacular sights; the hoover dam and the grand canyon. the hoover dam was pretty impressive, and it’s surroundings highlighted what i love about the west. the grand canyon was breath taking, despite my fear of heights. the five hour drives there and back were not as fun though, but i managed. we stopped in a western town that looked straight of the movies, old wooden lettering, tumble weed and all. driving route 66 was pretty cool, and we stopped for dinner in a small town Williams, Arizona. it’s pretty cute, but you could tell everyone knew you were a tourist.
it’s nice to be home though, and i get to spend the next few days of my break with my best friends, i couldn’t be happier!
Stay up all night and sleep all day, We were smart kids with too much to say. And we were so, so sure that they were missing out, They’re the ones who were missing out, and We were elemental, talked down to bare essentials, Who knew we’d get so far?
Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops. They said we’re wasting our lives, Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion. They said we’d burn so bright. We’d burn this city and go.
Pack our bags and lets get away - they’re catching on to us.