the sky glows, i see it shining when my eyes close. i hear your warnings but we both know i’m gonna look at it again. don’t wait, don’t wait the road is now a sudden sea and suddenly, you’re deep enough to lay your armor down. don’t wait don’t wait the lights will flash and fade away, the days will pass you by don’t wait to lay your armor down.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” - Mark Twain
you’ll go your way, and I’ll go mine. If we haven’t already. I wish you still had time for me, because right now I’m scared to death about where my life is headed. I wish you wouldn’t forget me in your life, I refuse to be that ‘throw-away’ friend, so you can make up your mind right now. keep me around and let me matter, or don’t. it just hurts, thats all. when i need you the most you’re not here for me. in case you couldn’t notice, i just want you to care.
today I went to New York City to relax and break away from everything with a bunch of my friends, and it was definitely a trip i’m going to remember for the rest of my life. We walked through Central Park for a few hours and went to the Metropolitan Museum of Art, people watched for a little and did lunch and some shopping in Times Square, and saw Phantom of the Opera. I haven’t laughed nearly as hard in a while as I did today, and it really made me appreciate the beauty of life and everything around us. Our lives will end before we know it, and days like this let me know i’m really living. summer is just around the corner and there’s so much to look forward to-the end of school, a second trip to nyc in a few weekends, parties, vacations, my birthday, and some maaadd relaxing.
oh and today we flipped out any time we recognized a place that gossip girl or any show/movie was filmed at, it was marvelous.
you’re in over your head in a problem you can’t seem to solve?
i can’t shake this constant worry, and there’s so much i want to say but it’s not funneling through. i feel like everyone except me has met someone in me that i don’t know yet- more like me-in-three-years.
you’re quiet and shy, but cute as hell. you make me trip on my words, and care about every detail. i know you’re perfect for me, and somehow i can’t have you. i wish i knew every thought that passes through your head. say something, anything.
in light of the sun, is there anyone? oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed, this world you must’ve crossed…you said you don’t know me, you don’t even care she said you don’t know me, you don’t wear my chains. essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across and open field. when flowers gaze at you, they’re not the only ones who cry when they see you. you said you don’t know me, you don’t even care. she said you don’t know me, and you don’t wear my chains. she said i think i’ll go to boston, i think i’ll start a new life, i think i’ll start over where no one knows my name. i’ll get out of california, i’m tired of this weather. i think i’ll get a lover and fly em out to spain. i think i’ll go to boston i think that i’m just tired i think i need a new town to leave this all behind. i think i need a sunrise, i’m tired of the sunset. i hear it’s nice in the summer, some snow would be nice.
it’s what’s missing that hurts. i think i question everything. everything. chances are what you say passes right through me, but i really should take it all to heart. i think i’m turning into who i don’t want to be. but it’s hard to tell when you’re not really sure who you’re losing. each day makes it harder to survive, i think the world disappeared. i think I disappeared.
–noun1.a disposition or tendency to look on the more favorable side of events or conditions and to expect the most favorable outcome.2.the belief that good ultimately predominates over evil in the world.3.the belief that goodness pervades reality.4.the doctrine that the existing world is the best of all possible worlds.
i can’t recall a day in the past week that it hasn’t rained. i also can’t recall a day my life has not been complete chaos. so much is going on, i need a second to breathe and realize i’m alive. trying to plan a weekend up to new york city takes way more effort that i ever imagined, may-june is so unbelievably packed with birthdays, graduation parties, parties in general, finals, a few shows, goodbyes, vacations,… but also (thank god) hellos. staying afloat and trying not to hit rock bottom. you have way more strength and power than you know, hold on to it. you’ll be alright, boy. i know you will. on the bright side, i’m going to Paris during spring break ‘10 with all my friends for a week, and it’s going to be such a good time i can feel it. j’espere que cette annee volera!